damien_dunphy

who am i ?

Mon, 02 Feb 2004 06:30:36 GMT

i think i have forgoten who i am and what i wanna do and go in my life . i use to have it all planed out . but now that hailey is gone i find my self lost . did i live for her ? i guess i did . i dont know hwy i let my self become so lost . i was once on top of every thing and every one now i am last in line . i think its time for me to start climbing the ladder once agian . i do think it shall be harder this time around but it shall be worth it in the end . thats my goal for now . rember who i was and Who i am . The era Of Damien The GREAT shall be once more .

Bad Month

Tue, 06 Jan 2004 03:39:32 GMT

This month has just been sooo bad .
it starts off with Xmas shopping witch i hate . I end up owing people money with i am just finaly paying off this week . then i get jumped on the last day of school befor the holidays . and then it takes 2 weeks for the FUCKING COPS!!!!!!!!!!! to even look at the case ! WTF ! this Sysytem Sucks .. Like I say Often To mY self FUCK THE SYSTEM but in this case i donno . so after work today my girl friend picks me you to drive me home and everything is great i was so Happy to see her although i didnt show it i was really tired andhad a badf day alrdy . so we get to my house and the bunch of us are talking about the jumping insodent and i didnt understand her it seemed like she was getting mad because i was saying what the cops told me and it wasnt what they told her . so i told her not to get angery so she Left and yelled at me at her car .. but do supose i was in the wrong i always am . but you knwo what i still love her and i always will . i when i close my eyes i see her and when tehy are open i am always looking for her . my dreams are filled will her and so are my thoughts . i dont think i could ever be mad at her . i love her and thats all i need . we all make mistakes but for the ones we trully love no mistake is big enough to make you totally mad at this person . I love hailey with all my hart and i think thats all that keeps me going now days is her beautiful face,
Damien Dunphy

What a day .

Thu, 18 Dec 2003 23:51:59 GMT

Well today i tryed to work things out with hailey and i dont think it went so well . like always . besides from that i had so much help and support from shallyn the bestest friend i have right now is her . . i just want everything to go right for me for once please .
why do i always screw it up and why when i am actually wanting somthing sooo pure its to late ?
even though i dont liste to this band much my mind feels like the song bother by stone sour and i just want to go to sleep and never wake up again . or i was was to awake i would want to be in a fantasy land where there is no problms and i dont have to worry about making the right choieses .
Why cant this be ?
why cant i just be what i should to people .
why do i keep asking why i should know . but i dont .
i donno anymore .
bye .